February 16, 2015

I get myself into a lot of difficult situations.  I find myself doing a lot of ridiculously stupid things with my money.  I spend what I don’t have on things I shouldn’t spend it on.  I also neglect to pay for things I should be paying.  I have incurred this debt or arranged to make these payments and it is my responsibility to make them.  It is not my right to put myself into a financial corner and expect God to bail me out.  It is not up to God to come in to save the day, and He is completely in the right to make me struggle until I change my bad habits for His good and mine.

The problem I am having is I have accrued a lot of debt that I probably should have paid by this point.  Instead of paying all my bills, I paid some and I spent the rest on other things that I legitimized to myself as valid.  As a result I am having a difficult time managing to get by.  I keep praying for the Father to provide me the money I need to pay my debt.  I have come to acknowledge the reason I haven’t received it is because my perspective and spending habits haven’t changed.  I am asking with the wrong motive in my heart.

I struggle to write this because I could be labeled as a fraud.  I write it because I am no different than anyone who reads this.  I am a sinner with bad habits that I need to turn over to God and allow Him to crush them.  I have overcome some sinful habits through His strength within me because I allowed Him to work in me with those areas.  I have selfishly held onto this one habit, unknowingly.  I did not realize I had not turned over this part of my life until recently.  I have been wrong and I need to repent and receive His guidance in this matter.

This problem really has nothing with having faith in His ability to provide for me.  I know He can.  This problem really has everything to do with me realigning my priorities with the will of God in my life.  I am convinced the reason I have not received an answer is because I did not change my money handling habits.  When my priorities become in line with the Father’s priorities, and when His Will becomes my will through my complete submission, then He will work in my life.

This problem applies to everyone.  It may not be money one has a problem setting their priority with but it may be something else.  In James the Spirit tells us our priorities need to be in line with the Father’s plan if we expect to receive His blessing.  I cannot be friends with the world.  I need to change my heart today and turn this over to Him.


James 4: 1-11: 1What causes fights and quarrels among you? Don’t they come from your desires that battle within you? 2You want something but don’t get it. You kill and covet, but you cannot have what you want. You quarrel and fight. You do not have, because you do not ask God. 3When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures.  4You adulterous people, don’t you know that friendship with the world is hatred toward God? Anyone who chooses to be a friend of the world becomes an enemy of God. 5Or do you think Scripture says without reason that the spirit he caused to live in us envies intensely?[a] 6But he gives us more grace. That is why Scripture says: “God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.”[b] 7Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. 8Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. 9Grieve, mourn and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom. 10Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.

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