I have been listening to the bible while I drive to and from work, which you probably already know. Recently I had listened to the Book of Daniel. I am humbled. But even more I am sorely disappointed in myself. But I also wonder how many other people like me are in the church. Daniel fasted for 21 days. 21 days. I have a difficult time fasting for 24 hours.
I feel I have a lack of discipline in my life. I can’t pray for more than ten minutes and my mind starts to wander. I hear people talk about spending all night, gripping the horns of the altar, praying for something, anything. Have I found anything worth a night of sleeplessness because I had to pray? Do I think my Heavenly Father is worthy of my time?
Sometimes I wonder if I am worthy to be called your fellow heir. I don’t communicate with you as often I should. And when I does not seem as important to me. I hear people talk about finding your own way to talk to God, but I feel like it is a cop out. I lack discipline, and I pray I could have the discipline of Daniel. It takes absolute reverence and humility before you in order to be that way. How long until I can achieve it?
Help me, please,