Today I tithed $5. It didn’t feel like it was enough. Actually, I don’t know anymore. I have tithed 10% of my gross income. I ended up overdrawing my account. But when I tithe less I always feel like it is never enough. I feel like I am scraping the peanut butter from around the inside of the jar and painting a smearing of it onto a piece of bread. “Here Jesus, this is for you.”, while I spend the rest.
Its not like I spend it on stuff I desire. I usually pay it towards my bills and other needs. I may spend about $20-30 a paycheck on myself. I know I am bad with money and I certainly have not been a good steward. You know that already. I just don’t understand what I should be doing or how I should be tithing. I want to be a reverse tither someday but I do not know if I will ever get there. I don’t always feel like my tithe is blessed.
I have heard stories of people begin tithing 10% almost reluctantly or out of desperation. And within weeks they are blessed. I try it and I overdraw my account and my finances are in worse shape than they were before. Am I doing something wrong or am is my attitude wrong or am I just a pathetic loser hoping to hit the heavenly lottery? Am I tithing hoping to get the jackpot that others received? The thing is I want to tithe and I feel wrong if I don’t tithe. All I want is to feel that my tithe has been accepted, like the old widow in Luke who put into the Temple coffers more than she could afford.
Jesus, I want tithe in a scriptural way. I want to give to you what is already yours. Please allow me to feel like it is enough, because I almost never do.
I am writing about Creationism because I want you to know where I stand, and I think it is a critical piece to the plan of salvation. I do not believe that it is a nonessential part of the tenets of belief in God’s word. I have read all the scientific books like The Genesis Flood, and I have read Darwin On Trial. These books, and those like them, are a great resource if you are discussing this matter with a secular person. I want to relate my stance in regards to the opposing views within the church, old earth vs. new earth.
Those who believe in the old earth position believe that God used evolution to aid in the creation process. They believe that the Genesis account is an allegorical, metaphorical and/or a poetic description of creation. They have been duped by the account of the fossil record, which can be explained by the Flood. What that does not account for is death due to the sin of Adam.
Romans 5:12 states that “Therefore, just as through one man sin entered into the world, and death through sin, and so death spread to all men, because all sinned.” And later in Romans 8:20-22, Paul writes that “all of creation groans and suffers the pains of childbirth” and “creation itself will be set free from its slavery to corruption.” If we believe that Adam was created after the earth was around for millennia, then we must believe that there were cycles of death as well. That would mean death existed before the sin of Adam. If that is true then Adam’s sin would not be the original sin, and if his sin is not the original sin, then that would nullify the work of the Cross and the Resurrection of Jesus. His sacrifice would have been for naught.
The question of old earth vs. new earth is a spiritual question within the church, not a scientific one, because this also brings up the matter of selective belief regarding Scripture. One cannot believe that the Genesis account is allegorical and poetic, and believe that the rest of the historical content of the bible can be accepted as literal. One must believe that God performed Creation within the seven day week as literal, along with the rest of Scripture, or the bible becomes what the skeptics say it is: a book full of wonderful moral stories like Aesop’s Fables.